:) :) Smile Just a Little More.... :) :)

These summer dayssssss.. chilling, training, dreaming, working, writing, running, hanging with the peeps, thinking, thinking, and thinking!! Haha. Things are good though, I've been having some adventures and making the mula at Big Surf, saving up for a car and hopefully an apartment!! :)))) In the process of trying to plan a trip to Fossil Creeeeeek ;D still trying to stay dedicated to my training plan for the ASU track and field team :P There's always going to be the ups and downs in life..and most of the bad things I have just accepted, it's the mature thing to do, right?

"Long Live"....that might be my new fave Tswift song..at the moment!! ;P it's always changing doeeeee!! Hahahaha..omgggg, soo a lot has been happening..like school ending! :O my freshman yr of college is about to be done! I move out Tuesday.. :( it's kinda sorta sad especially since I don't know where I will be living next semester!! Crapperbeanzzzz :l but I'll figure something out!! ;D My finals have been going awesome..French was a breeeeeze and Philosophy and Human Development should go just as well! Started my new job at Big Surf..lifeguarding..pretty cool stuff duuuuudes!! Errrrone is soooo nice and I looooves sliding down the slides for rotations! Haha ;D and I received "Guard of the Day" today....Ooooohh I Fresssssh!! :D I haven't hungout with my bestie in a longgggg time tho :'( and I missed out on seeing The Killers in concert last night!! :'O notttt coooool!!!! I might just have to go to New York this summer to see em!! Hahaha :'P I wish..but yeahhhh..and I'm starting to let things go and let things be..everything falls into place one way or another, and I know everything will be fine<3 But right now, I'm going to do some writing..the last thing I wrote was a poem in French..soo cuute :') it warms my heart!! We'll see what I come up with tonight!! Seeeeee Yaaaaaas!! :P

I can't make someone care. I can't make someone understand. I can try my best to explain it, and make them hear me..but they have to want to, and it hurts when you find out that they have no care in the world to..it's never what you expect I guess, and then that's when you feel stupid for making it a big deal..you're even more hurt in the end..and you don't even know where to begin, when it ends. :'(
 
But yeahhhhhh....sooooo I really want these turquoise doc martins in the set!! They're toooo perfect!! :P

*Sigh*.

Yeah, that song, "Waiting," by the great Tom Petty, I've pretty much have been listening to that all dayyyyyyy long!!!! *Siiiiiigh* People are very weird..like I'll never understand things sometimes, and it's not like I can come right out and ask what the frick is up!?!? I let things get to me, but any girl would..so I'm being the bigger person..and waitinggggg!!!! Waiting on my best friend to save our friendship, waiting for a guy that was never mine and will most likely not ever be mine either..soo I'll just be posted thinking about a lot of things..I mean yes 9 shots of liquor can take away some of your sorrows..until you wake up with throw up in your hair and the worst hangover of your life..thank goodness for my 24hour nap and a late trip to In N Out last night..and Katie's dumbass voicemail, and that call from Jalyna. Maybe Ricky is right, I need to let go of trying to be with guys I already know..it's safe and I cradle that, but the Ramon situation will always be a bad situation, and that hurts me because I always saw the silver lining..and the Juan situation is simply me being a fool; I can't even go there. And through all this I don't have my best friend, who's shut me out for almost 2 months. Yeah, waiting is definitely the hardest part!! :'(

This is a line from one of Passion Pit's songs on their new album, Gossamer<3 It's called "Constant Conversations, and I Looooovess it!! ;D Hahahaha..buttttt anywayyyyzzzz, besides that. New album coming out TOMORROW..Haha, I went to Castles n Coasters with my Bestie thiss past Friday and it wasssss toooooo muchh funn!! Haha, we got the unlimited ride pass, and we basically killed it with the rides..Yeahh, we are Totezz Crazayyyy when it comes to thrill rides..I'd say we went on the big rollercoaster, Desert Storm, like 8 times!! :P and then the huge drop, Sky Diver, like 5 times..ohhhh, that drop, when your feet just dangle, then totally go out in front of you as you fly down the drop..it's crazilyyyy Aweesomee!! Haha! ;D errtiime we did it, we were like, uhmm, whyy are we up here again!?!? #Idiiiiiotts!! ;P Hahahaha..and thenn on Speed Dragon, ohemmmmgeeee, I swear we were totallyy going to fall outta that one..Haha, that's what we get for being superr small!! :P and thenn on SplashDown, getting wet on tha huge drop felt gooood..for a hotttt second :P and thenn omgggg, the Go-Karts were tooooo hilarious!! #StayInYoLaneBoo!! Me&my Bestie mosst def tore up the track ;P Hahahaha!! And after that adventure, we hit up some drive-thrus, for food&slushes! Yum! ;D and back at her house, we had a midnight picnic out in the frontyard..complete with some slow song music :P and thenn we watched our SpongeBob..and told Ghost Stories..and finallyy fell asleep!! Hahahaha..jusst another Perrrrrfectt Niiiiight with the Best Friend!! ;DNenewa

Besides my Bestie, I have a few other close, close friends..people I do trust and love and care for..but jusst recently one of those supposed friends that I considered to be really "close" to, pretty much crossed me in the most horrible way. :'O I didn't ever think someone could completely blow you off sooooo many times, like straight-up ignore you..especially when you really need their help and jusst really need to talk to them and have them there for you!!!! Any close friend would be there for you, and if not, they are terribly apologetic and will do their best to help nooooo matter what..they would not ever consider TOTALLYYYYY blowing you off.. now that this happened to me, I'm superrrrr upset, crushed, and torn..I still wanna talk to this person and go to them for advice and retain our "close" friendship, but I now feel as if our friendship has been totally lost and it won't ever be the same again..when you cross someone, things won't ever be the same :'(((((

Adventure. One word. One meaning.
Everything is unexpected, risky, and alwayyss ends up being loadsssss of funn!!!! I mean, this is what always happens to my Bestie and I whenever we hang..and thiss summer has been NOOOOO exception!!!! Everytime we hang, it's simply perfect and we get caught in some sort of Craziness!! ;P whether that is flirting with our "DutchBoii!!" while getting "Free Coffee" or chasing black cats at the park or buying stray chicken toys at Walgreens, or having random laughing fits wherever we go, or having a million of photo shoots!! ;D We make our own fun, like on Fourth of July..in the rain rollerblading, playing frisbee, playing beach volleyball, watching fireworks right by the water at our Beautiful Lake!! We even rented our "Chuckawala Boats" finally! Haha..and hit up NightSplash..and Pink Spot, and Candy Addict..and ohhhhh, there's definitely morrrrre!!!! Tooooo much to list, but little by little my Bestie and I are most defo knocking things off our huge "Summer To-Do List!!!!" :D We are the coooooolest Best Friends..and I am sooooo grateful to have someone like her in my life!!!! She complete me!!!!<3<3

Yeah, soo when you get outta high school, graduate and errthangg..the usual, next step is..COLLEGE!!!! ;D
Haha, yesssss..I've had soo many ups and downs with the whole college thangg over the course of my Senior Yr. in high school, the ups of thinking I was legit going to San Diego State :O to the downs of realizing there was noo way I could make my Cali Dream come true unless I wanted to go into some SERIOUS, SERIOUS debt!! :'O yeahh, notttttt coooool!! I even debated jusst going to Community College in Cali jusst to get away, and be there!!!!!! Hahahahahaha..or I even thought about taking year off from school and going traveling with a camera, a composition book, and paints!! Haha, I still in my heart wanna do that instead of school, be my own free-bird, photographer, creative writer, painter, young woman!! Haha, it soundsssss like a blassssst, but I mean, I have to go get an education&a degree to be successful in life..soooo I am going to ASU!! Haha, and I wasn't tooooo excited at first, but I remember talking to my high school counselor, Mrs.Pallisard, about it, and she told me, "Always Remember that where you end up is where You were Meant to be." and when she first told me, I'm thinking thiss totexx suxxxxx, I do not wanna still be living in Arizona..but after going to orientation for ASU last Thursday and looking on the Brighter side of things, I've realized maybayyyyy she is right!! ;P I mean, I kindaa figured everything out..Ima major in Psychology, and then start my double major with Creative Writing my Sophomore Yr..I'm living in the dorms at the Tempe Campus..and Tempe is Amazzzzzingg, like Mill Avenue, soooo much funn ishh to do!!!! I can't waiiiiit to live on my own, and jusst like go to class, or wake up the morning for an early jog around campus, biking around Tempe Town Lake, Shopping on Mill..I'm slowly trying to turn it into my own California!! Hahahaha..Ima be getting my Beach Cruiser sooooon, some new college clothesssss!!!!! #Swaggggg!! ;D ;D I have to buy all my dorm ishhhhh, that'll be totezz funnerzzzz..and thenn meeting my roommate..I mean already at orientation, I met thiss superr cool girly, Molly, and we automatically clicked!! Hahahaha..I'm jusst sooooo siiiiiked to meet new people, and start a new chapter in my life..I might even join a sorority..rush week soundsssss like soooo muchhhhh funnnnn!!!! Hahahahaha!!!! But yeeeeahhhh, maybeeee I am where I am supposed to be at..as of now..because as everything is starting to come together, it does feel right!!!! :))))))